How i killed you

I will nod
and give you a hopeful comment
and you will smile and turn your head
like all the others
only to return to embrace me
as they did as well

and then
later on
you will realize that my love
is not a slow realization
a snake or tiger waiting in the brush
as is yours
but a crushing love

one as all-consuming as the sea
you will either dive into me
as if an expert
and drown

or you will crash into me
and I will break you
unforgiving

even more
around this time
I will tell you about the others
the ones before you

And you will be able to see them now
Their bodies piled atop one another
like legos
along the rocks of my shore

and you will wonder
what magic was used
to lore you
into such a trap

and I will tell you sweet things
things to keep you
from seeing
how bright my love can shine
when it's raining

I will tell you things
to keep from scarring you
to camouflage how much
of a masachist my love really is
beaten and dragged down
howbeit torn and ripped
it does not falter to its knees
merely takes one hit across the cheek
and braces the other for impact

I will comment
I will smile
I will nod and shake my head
with embrangled rapture
that gives you hope
that I am not the man
for which
you suspect me to be
that I do not
posses the love
you suspect that I have

I will repeat the whole process again
that was admitted from the beginning
but at this time
you will see through me like a ghost

Yes
you will struggle as they all have
through my vines grip of affection
and look upon me as if I am a transparent

And i will comment
I will smile
I will nod and shake my head
hoping that my last few tricks
will blind you
to the person I truly am

but around this time
you will smile and turn your head
like all the others
and collapse
onto the waste side
with the rest of my unwitting victims

unrequited breath
your smile
and most importantly
seeing through my illusions
but choosing death instead

And that
is how I will kill you